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Author's Note: In the following Journal Entry, all Japanese names (excepting that of characters) will be in first name-family name mode, rather than the traditional family-name first-name of Japanese. For simplicity's sake and because the author and director named in this are more well known in their "first family" name version, and I don't want anyone to have to sit here going... "O.o who's she talking about...OH YEAH..." So while on a normal basis, I would always do the traditional Japanese "family first" name version, I decided for this rant, I'll just save everyone the confusion.
Thank you.
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Every once in a while, I have a blazing resurgence of love for a favorite anime. Rurouni Kenshin is my absolute number one. Kenshin and Kaoru my very first OTP. Slayers is my number two. When I found out about Revolution and Evo-R, a massive resurgence of love and obsession kicked in for Lina and co. As you can see from my gallery with the fact that I have a Slayers folder full of fan art. Sometimes that's what it takes. A new season ten years plus after the fact to remind me of how much I love the hell out of something. Always loved Slayers, watch it at least once--sometimes twice a year (mostly it's Try I watch over and over again though lol). But doing that doesn't make me draw tons of bloody fan art. Nor does it make me delve madly back into the fandom. It took a WHOLE NEW SEASON OF AWESOME to make me do that.
Now, for Rurouni Kenshin, my number one, it takes much, much less.
For one thing, I watch RuroKen quite often. So often that there are DVDs that I've already had to replace because I watch them so much. I know the first handful of episodes by heart. In Japanese of course, because RuroKen cannot be watched in English. Which means exactly what you think it means. I can quote the entire first episode of RuroKen in Japanese the way one quotes The Princess Bride. I don't have to read the subtitles of RuroKen anymore. I know it practically by heart. I laugh at the same moments, tear up at the same moments, cheer and squeal and shout at the same moments. It doesn't matter that I first saw the series over ten years ago. It doesn't lose its awesomeness or how much I love it.
However, RuroKen is an anime that I never got into its fanbase. Mainly because I live in fear of anime fans. Delving into the fanbase of Slayers was rough by itself. I never did it when I originally saw the series, but I did it a little now. Quickly got out before I was sucked into silly things like arguing about who should be with who and personality traits. No thank you. I don't need that. And RuroKen is SO incredibly special to me and so much my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE that I'm terrified of hearing or reading something that will depress the hell out of me.
For example. The second OVA Reflection doesn't exist. It's NOT canon. I don't care what anyone says. Even the crazy genius Nobuhiro Watsuki-san himself disowned it. It's a very pretty animated FAN FICTION. Period. It's OOC, depressing, inaccurate and nothing at all what the creator intended for these characters. So much so that I will reiterate. Nobuhiro Watsuki-san, creator of RuroKen, DISOWNED the "second" OVA. There is no discussion.
And if you really wanted to push me I could go on and on and on and on why, for example, that animated fan fiction is OOC. I know these characters and this story so well. I could teach a class on RuroKen. Honest to god, I'm probably wrong, but I've seen and read the incarnations of RuroKen so often that I feel like I would officially be the number one fan. I'm probably not, lord knows I don't produce any fan stuff for RuroKen, but part of the reason for that is because I feel like I could never do it justice.
And yet despite that... Lately I've been feeling the need to produce fan stuff.
Not fan fiction, god, I gave that up YEARS ago. I gave it a whirl for fun with Slayers and LOOK. It's not FINISHED. And there's a ton of others I still haven't finished and god knows when I finally will. If I ever do.
But fan art...?
Hmmmmmmmmmmm... Maybe. My art has gotten decent enough that maybe, just maybe, I will feel good about doodling some RuroKen fan art. But mostly, the reasons why I've been inclined in the last couple of days to suddenly draw some RuroKen fan art are because of a couple of interesting facts--that have had the same affect on me as the new season of Slayers.
1. Apparently, in the summer of 2010, the Japanese began filming a live action RuroKen movie.
Now, whether this is a good thing or a horrible thing remains to be seen. I had a mixed reaction of *GASP OMG* that was a blend of excitement and horror. I'm not sure what to make of it. There's not much information on it, aside from the fact that they apparently started filming last summer and that the reason why they "waited" for so long was that they wanted the CGI to be advanced enough to pull it off well.
... O.o
What?
This is RuroKen. It's a historical shounen manga and anime. Kenshin's moves a long with some of the bad guys might be a bit... over the top, but it's not like RuroKen is a fantasy like most historical Japanese anime and manga (such as Inuyasha or Ninja Scroll for example). There are no demons in RuroKen. No monsters--except for human ones--and no matter how monstrous they might look, they're still human. Akira Kurosawa-san could've made a RuroKen movie.
And do you have any idea how awesome that would've been...? Making it less over the top seems to work well. Look at the original OVAs (Trust & Betrayal). Kurosawa-san would've made RuroKen even BETTER because he would've given it the realism of the OVAs, but would've kept the humor (because he's good at that too, no lack of humor in Kurosawa movies--note Yojimbo, Sanjuro and The Hidden Fortress) which the OVAs sadly lack. Even the manga--during the time period in which the original OVAs take place--there was still humor. And Kurosawa-san totally would've played up manga Kenshin's deadpan snarkiness (which the anime doesn't play up nearly enough).
But, ultimately, I'm both excited and utterly terrified. Needing CGI for a historical, non-fantasy anime worries me greatly. And yet...it's RuroKen. I can't help but be a little excited. Even if the reviews when it comes out makes it out to be the most horrible thing ever, I'm still going to watch it. I'll reserve judgment until I see it for myself.
2. Two months ago, a new Rurouni Kenshin anime project was announced.
WTF?! Cue freak out. A new new project? Or just FINALLY finishing the last third of the damn manga in anime form? Are we FINALLY going to get the Jinchuu arc? Or or or or... are they rebooting Kenshin entirely?!
No idea, honestly. There's no information. But there are these, which are scans gathered from here: the-oro.com/kk_lay.php?x=multi… -- The-Oro.com
Kenshin's scar got bigger O.O
What's up with Kaoru's hair?
Well, Sano looks the same at least. EXCEPT THE AKU KANJI IS NOW TATTOOED ONTO HIS BACK!! *O*
Yahiko is so ANGRY! XD
Megumi has got HAIR yo
Aoshi's got glasses! Squee!
Misao's hair got spikier. Weird.
Saitou looks grittier. And...more spikes. O.o What's with the spikes?
OMG HIKO-SAMA'S HAIR AND IN A SUIT?! You know...now I'm thinking that Hiko-sama might just be Fury's father... And in case you don't know... This is Fury Flatliner (yes that's his name) from Watsuki-san's latest manga Embalming
If you go through the actual pages on The-Oro.com you will find more "revamped" images of RuroKen characters. From Tomoe and Enishi to the Juppongatana and Gein (who, btw, got a MASSIVE revamp! If you ever read the manga--including Watsuki-san's comments--you'll die laughing like I did when you see the revamp of Gein). Hannya, as an aside, also looks so much more awesome. But a few of the others have...gotten scarier and freakier. Maybe Embalming has gotten to Watsuki-san's head? Or maybe he's just like I'M GONNA GO NUTS~!
But what does this mean? No idea. Odd that they announce a RuroKen project and Watsuki-san releases these upgraded designs of RuroKen characters in his current style 15 years after the manga first began. Are they rebooting RuroKen all together? Or are they just making the Jinchuu arc? If they do make just the Jinchuu arc, are they going to draw the characters with these designs? Some of these designs call into question the characters' background stories. Are those being updated too? How can they be really? Unless it IS a reboot? I just don't know.
But it's...kind of EXCITING. I have no idea what it means, or what will happen, but...I haven't felt like this since... since well, January 2010 when I realized HOLY SHIT THEY AIRED A NEW SEASON OF SLAYERS IN THE SUMMER?! WTF YO HOW DID I MISS THAT?! AND THE SECOND HALF IS STARTING NOW?! SCORE ME!! And because I'm excited, I want to do RuroKen fan art. My only big question is...do I use the new designs that Watsuki-san has brought out? I kind of want to in some cases. I mean, Kenshin looks a bit beefier and taller to me, which of course is GREATLY APPEALING. And Kaoru, while her hair is a bit strange, the notes indicate that we're finally going to see the bad ass that Watsuki-san always said she was, but we could never see because she was surrounded by SUPERMEN. She's got a dagger hidden in her obi. And she's wearing her kimono AND carrying around her bokuto. She rarely had it on her if she wasn't in her gi. SO AWESOME. And Megumi and Aoshi are sporting glasses?! I wanna draw that! And boy, will I have fun doodling Megumi's hair. There goes all my ink, but STILL. And I kind of like that Watsuki-san seems to be "reclaiming" RuroKen, which is still his magnum opus, by redesigning the characters in his current, evolved style. There was so much Marvel influence in RuroKen because Watsuki-san is a Stan Lee fanboy that it was practically a love song. The list of references is practically endless. And in these drafts, there seems to be little evidence of those things anymore. Hannya doesn't have Wolverine claws. Aoshi no longer sports the Gambit trenchcoat. Jin-e doesn't look like a crazy old Gambit. Mumyoui no longer looks like a Venom clone. Hyougo looks less like Apocalypse. And yet...some of these characters (namely Jin-e and Hannya) now look about ten times scarier than they did in the original. Mumyoui just looks awesome with his new design. But that's this fangirl's personal opinion. He actually looks like a bad guy that would be COOL and not just... well, Venom. Not that Venom isn't cool. Venom is cool. But now Mumyoui has his own level of cool, rather than trying to steal Venom's. Not that I'll be drawing ANY of them. Hells no. I'm sticking to the Kenshin-gumi. I'm not THAT good an artist. I certainly am NOT Watsuki-sama.
Other character designs that I will definitely not draw but look as cool as hell are the other Oniwabanshuu. Hyotoko and Beshimi are just scary yo. Shikijou actually looks bad ASS. And imagining the plot with these much more awesome looking characters makes certain things--like Misao-chan remembering Hannya-kun--that much MORE awesome. I mean... I try imagining the new design of Hannya training a little Misao and the amount of AWESOME is exponential.
So I don't know... I kind of want to draw them with their new designs, but at the same time, most fans probably haven't seen them and/or don't know this information, so is it best to just stick to the original concepts to do fan art? I really have no clue. I figure ultimately I'll mess around with the new designs because it is they, as well as these two absurd announcements twelve years after the series ended, that have gotten me all excited.
And, of course, what happens when I'm excited about an anime again (aside from a surge in fan art)?
I watch it again.
And can I just say--damn. This show is SO good. So much love. SO MUCH LOVE.
Kenshin and Kaoru. My original OTP.
Though I love Sano/Megumi, Aoshi/Misao, Yahiko/Tsubame, and Shishio/Yumi too.
Still. Kenshin and Kaoru. ONE. TRUE. PAIRING.
Oh the love. The love I have for this show. <333333333333
Please excuse me while I giggle maniacally at Kenshin knocking down an entire gang of Sumo wrestlers with rice buckets while muttering "oro."
LOVE.
***
To Do List: (which I probably won't be getting around to doing for a long long long long time.)
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... Cuz I'm not doing them in the craptastic ancient sketchbook that I can't erase on (practically) and that is virtually impossible to scan. *head desk*
***
Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No anime was harmed in the writing of this post. However it was watched and quoted with an eerie obsession only found in mad fans who have watched it waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too many times.
~My clubs~
Thank you.
*
Every once in a while, I have a blazing resurgence of love for a favorite anime. Rurouni Kenshin is my absolute number one. Kenshin and Kaoru my very first OTP. Slayers is my number two. When I found out about Revolution and Evo-R, a massive resurgence of love and obsession kicked in for Lina and co. As you can see from my gallery with the fact that I have a Slayers folder full of fan art. Sometimes that's what it takes. A new season ten years plus after the fact to remind me of how much I love the hell out of something. Always loved Slayers, watch it at least once--sometimes twice a year (mostly it's Try I watch over and over again though lol). But doing that doesn't make me draw tons of bloody fan art. Nor does it make me delve madly back into the fandom. It took a WHOLE NEW SEASON OF AWESOME to make me do that.
Now, for Rurouni Kenshin, my number one, it takes much, much less.
For one thing, I watch RuroKen quite often. So often that there are DVDs that I've already had to replace because I watch them so much. I know the first handful of episodes by heart. In Japanese of course, because RuroKen cannot be watched in English. Which means exactly what you think it means. I can quote the entire first episode of RuroKen in Japanese the way one quotes The Princess Bride. I don't have to read the subtitles of RuroKen anymore. I know it practically by heart. I laugh at the same moments, tear up at the same moments, cheer and squeal and shout at the same moments. It doesn't matter that I first saw the series over ten years ago. It doesn't lose its awesomeness or how much I love it.
However, RuroKen is an anime that I never got into its fanbase. Mainly because I live in fear of anime fans. Delving into the fanbase of Slayers was rough by itself. I never did it when I originally saw the series, but I did it a little now. Quickly got out before I was sucked into silly things like arguing about who should be with who and personality traits. No thank you. I don't need that. And RuroKen is SO incredibly special to me and so much my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE that I'm terrified of hearing or reading something that will depress the hell out of me.
For example. The second OVA Reflection doesn't exist. It's NOT canon. I don't care what anyone says. Even the crazy genius Nobuhiro Watsuki-san himself disowned it. It's a very pretty animated FAN FICTION. Period. It's OOC, depressing, inaccurate and nothing at all what the creator intended for these characters. So much so that I will reiterate. Nobuhiro Watsuki-san, creator of RuroKen, DISOWNED the "second" OVA. There is no discussion.
And if you really wanted to push me I could go on and on and on and on why, for example, that animated fan fiction is OOC. I know these characters and this story so well. I could teach a class on RuroKen. Honest to god, I'm probably wrong, but I've seen and read the incarnations of RuroKen so often that I feel like I would officially be the number one fan. I'm probably not, lord knows I don't produce any fan stuff for RuroKen, but part of the reason for that is because I feel like I could never do it justice.
And yet despite that... Lately I've been feeling the need to produce fan stuff.
Not fan fiction, god, I gave that up YEARS ago. I gave it a whirl for fun with Slayers and LOOK. It's not FINISHED. And there's a ton of others I still haven't finished and god knows when I finally will. If I ever do.
But fan art...?
Hmmmmmmmmmmm... Maybe. My art has gotten decent enough that maybe, just maybe, I will feel good about doodling some RuroKen fan art. But mostly, the reasons why I've been inclined in the last couple of days to suddenly draw some RuroKen fan art are because of a couple of interesting facts--that have had the same affect on me as the new season of Slayers.
1. Apparently, in the summer of 2010, the Japanese began filming a live action RuroKen movie.
Now, whether this is a good thing or a horrible thing remains to be seen. I had a mixed reaction of *GASP OMG* that was a blend of excitement and horror. I'm not sure what to make of it. There's not much information on it, aside from the fact that they apparently started filming last summer and that the reason why they "waited" for so long was that they wanted the CGI to be advanced enough to pull it off well.
... O.o
What?
This is RuroKen. It's a historical shounen manga and anime. Kenshin's moves a long with some of the bad guys might be a bit... over the top, but it's not like RuroKen is a fantasy like most historical Japanese anime and manga (such as Inuyasha or Ninja Scroll for example). There are no demons in RuroKen. No monsters--except for human ones--and no matter how monstrous they might look, they're still human. Akira Kurosawa-san could've made a RuroKen movie.
And do you have any idea how awesome that would've been...? Making it less over the top seems to work well. Look at the original OVAs (Trust & Betrayal). Kurosawa-san would've made RuroKen even BETTER because he would've given it the realism of the OVAs, but would've kept the humor (because he's good at that too, no lack of humor in Kurosawa movies--note Yojimbo, Sanjuro and The Hidden Fortress) which the OVAs sadly lack. Even the manga--during the time period in which the original OVAs take place--there was still humor. And Kurosawa-san totally would've played up manga Kenshin's deadpan snarkiness (which the anime doesn't play up nearly enough).
But, ultimately, I'm both excited and utterly terrified. Needing CGI for a historical, non-fantasy anime worries me greatly. And yet...it's RuroKen. I can't help but be a little excited. Even if the reviews when it comes out makes it out to be the most horrible thing ever, I'm still going to watch it. I'll reserve judgment until I see it for myself.
2. Two months ago, a new Rurouni Kenshin anime project was announced.
WTF?! Cue freak out. A new new project? Or just FINALLY finishing the last third of the damn manga in anime form? Are we FINALLY going to get the Jinchuu arc? Or or or or... are they rebooting Kenshin entirely?!
No idea, honestly. There's no information. But there are these, which are scans gathered from here: the-oro.com/kk_lay.php?x=multi… -- The-Oro.com
Kenshin's scar got bigger O.O
What's up with Kaoru's hair?
Well, Sano looks the same at least. EXCEPT THE AKU KANJI IS NOW TATTOOED ONTO HIS BACK!! *O*
Yahiko is so ANGRY! XD
Megumi has got HAIR yo
Aoshi's got glasses! Squee!
Misao's hair got spikier. Weird.
Saitou looks grittier. And...more spikes. O.o What's with the spikes?
OMG HIKO-SAMA'S HAIR AND IN A SUIT?! You know...now I'm thinking that Hiko-sama might just be Fury's father... And in case you don't know... This is Fury Flatliner (yes that's his name) from Watsuki-san's latest manga Embalming
If you go through the actual pages on The-Oro.com you will find more "revamped" images of RuroKen characters. From Tomoe and Enishi to the Juppongatana and Gein (who, btw, got a MASSIVE revamp! If you ever read the manga--including Watsuki-san's comments--you'll die laughing like I did when you see the revamp of Gein). Hannya, as an aside, also looks so much more awesome. But a few of the others have...gotten scarier and freakier. Maybe Embalming has gotten to Watsuki-san's head? Or maybe he's just like I'M GONNA GO NUTS~!
But what does this mean? No idea. Odd that they announce a RuroKen project and Watsuki-san releases these upgraded designs of RuroKen characters in his current style 15 years after the manga first began. Are they rebooting RuroKen all together? Or are they just making the Jinchuu arc? If they do make just the Jinchuu arc, are they going to draw the characters with these designs? Some of these designs call into question the characters' background stories. Are those being updated too? How can they be really? Unless it IS a reboot? I just don't know.
But it's...kind of EXCITING. I have no idea what it means, or what will happen, but...I haven't felt like this since... since well, January 2010 when I realized HOLY SHIT THEY AIRED A NEW SEASON OF SLAYERS IN THE SUMMER?! WTF YO HOW DID I MISS THAT?! AND THE SECOND HALF IS STARTING NOW?! SCORE ME!! And because I'm excited, I want to do RuroKen fan art. My only big question is...do I use the new designs that Watsuki-san has brought out? I kind of want to in some cases. I mean, Kenshin looks a bit beefier and taller to me, which of course is GREATLY APPEALING. And Kaoru, while her hair is a bit strange, the notes indicate that we're finally going to see the bad ass that Watsuki-san always said she was, but we could never see because she was surrounded by SUPERMEN. She's got a dagger hidden in her obi. And she's wearing her kimono AND carrying around her bokuto. She rarely had it on her if she wasn't in her gi. SO AWESOME. And Megumi and Aoshi are sporting glasses?! I wanna draw that! And boy, will I have fun doodling Megumi's hair. There goes all my ink, but STILL. And I kind of like that Watsuki-san seems to be "reclaiming" RuroKen, which is still his magnum opus, by redesigning the characters in his current, evolved style. There was so much Marvel influence in RuroKen because Watsuki-san is a Stan Lee fanboy that it was practically a love song. The list of references is practically endless. And in these drafts, there seems to be little evidence of those things anymore. Hannya doesn't have Wolverine claws. Aoshi no longer sports the Gambit trenchcoat. Jin-e doesn't look like a crazy old Gambit. Mumyoui no longer looks like a Venom clone. Hyougo looks less like Apocalypse. And yet...some of these characters (namely Jin-e and Hannya) now look about ten times scarier than they did in the original. Mumyoui just looks awesome with his new design. But that's this fangirl's personal opinion. He actually looks like a bad guy that would be COOL and not just... well, Venom. Not that Venom isn't cool. Venom is cool. But now Mumyoui has his own level of cool, rather than trying to steal Venom's. Not that I'll be drawing ANY of them. Hells no. I'm sticking to the Kenshin-gumi. I'm not THAT good an artist. I certainly am NOT Watsuki-sama.
Other character designs that I will definitely not draw but look as cool as hell are the other Oniwabanshuu. Hyotoko and Beshimi are just scary yo. Shikijou actually looks bad ASS. And imagining the plot with these much more awesome looking characters makes certain things--like Misao-chan remembering Hannya-kun--that much MORE awesome. I mean... I try imagining the new design of Hannya training a little Misao and the amount of AWESOME is exponential.
So I don't know... I kind of want to draw them with their new designs, but at the same time, most fans probably haven't seen them and/or don't know this information, so is it best to just stick to the original concepts to do fan art? I really have no clue. I figure ultimately I'll mess around with the new designs because it is they, as well as these two absurd announcements twelve years after the series ended, that have gotten me all excited.
And, of course, what happens when I'm excited about an anime again (aside from a surge in fan art)?
I watch it again.
And can I just say--damn. This show is SO good. So much love. SO MUCH LOVE.
Kenshin and Kaoru. My original OTP.
Though I love Sano/Megumi, Aoshi/Misao, Yahiko/Tsubame, and Shishio/Yumi too.Still. Kenshin and Kaoru. ONE. TRUE. PAIRING.
Oh the love. The love I have for this show. <333333333333
Please excuse me while I giggle maniacally at Kenshin knocking down an entire gang of Sumo wrestlers with rice buckets while muttering "oro."
LOVE.
***
To Do List: (which I probably won't be getting around to doing for a long long long long time.)
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... Cuz I'm not doing them in the craptastic ancient sketchbook that I can't erase on (practically) and that is virtually impossible to scan. *head desk*
***
Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No anime was harmed in the writing of this post. However it was watched and quoted with an eerie obsession only found in mad fans who have watched it waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too many times.
~My clubs~
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My theme song...
4 min read
I hear this song and I love it and it makes me sad. Because it feels like me. Ha ha ha. Who am I kidding? It IS me. If you haven't heard it, listen to it. It's a great song.
When she was 22 the future looked bright
But she's nearly 30 now and she's out every night
I see that look in her face she's got that look in her eye
She's thinking how did I get here and wondering why
It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Til the man of her dreams comes along picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age
She's got an alright job but it's not a career
Wherever she thinks about it, it brings her to tears
Cause all she wants is a boyfriend
She gets one-night stands
She's thinking how did I get here
I'm doing all that I can
It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Til the man of her dreams comes along picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age
It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Til the man of her dreams comes along picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age
Also I'm approximately 300 pageviews short of 10k. If anyone gets the 10k view, cares, and wants a doodle, you may have one of your choice. As it is free, I reserve the right to say "no, won't draw that, choose something else please? thank you." I doubt there'll be much rampaging for the 10k pageview.
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To Do List: (which I probably won't be getting around to doing for a long long long long time.)
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
***
Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No music was harmed in the listening/writing of this post. It was appreciated and cried to however. XD
~My clubs~
When she was 22 the future looked bright
But she's nearly 30 now and she's out every night
I see that look in her face she's got that look in her eye
She's thinking how did I get here and wondering why
It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Til the man of her dreams comes along picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age
She's got an alright job but it's not a career
Wherever she thinks about it, it brings her to tears
Cause all she wants is a boyfriend
She gets one-night stands
She's thinking how did I get here
I'm doing all that I can
It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Til the man of her dreams comes along picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age
It's sad but it's true how society says
Her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
Til the man of her dreams comes along picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age
Also I'm approximately 300 pageviews short of 10k. If anyone gets the 10k view, cares, and wants a doodle, you may have one of your choice. As it is free, I reserve the right to say "no, won't draw that, choose something else please? thank you." I doubt there'll be much rampaging for the 10k pageview.
***
To Do List: (which I probably won't be getting around to doing for a long long long long time.)
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
***
Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No music was harmed in the listening/writing of this post. It was appreciated and cried to however. XD
~My clubs~
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A slow return
4 min read
After the intensity of Squaw Valley and the immediate move after, I didn't have much time--let alone gumption--to deal with deviantART. After a month my inbox was so full, I continued to avoid it, until now, it has reached a capacity of 10,625 messages...and two notes. That said, I will most likely not be going through each and ever deviation--god help me. I will do my best to get through a couple hundred a day and try to tone it down. I will be deleting a good chunk. I apologize in advance to those I watch--I love you, but life kicked me in the ass while you have all been infinitely productive.
I do not believe I've ever been depressed before. I was okayish through February--but since then I've been spiraling downward. Not even RP seems to bring me out of it. I made a lot of promises to myself and haven't kept one. I just want to get lost in doing something else, but can't. I've barely written a word.
All in all, I believe I'm officially in the middle of my first real depression and I'm not sure how to handle it.
That said, I will still not be on dA very often. I have YET to find a job, and it's becoming more and more frustrating. I have now expanded my search and I will continue to keep trying to move forwards and upwards. I have been doodling some, so I will be posting the handful of things I've managed to doodle in the last ten months. Not a whole lot so don't worry about a dump into your inboxes.
Not like any of you will notice much.
In any case, ultimately I'm doing this because a) I need something to keep me somewhat sane during those days when there's no video game, no tv, and no friends to break the brain damaging monotony of applying to jobs and b) I'm proud of a few doodles and want to share them. Even if no one really cares or notices much. If you do, awesome. If you don't, oh well.
With any luck, I can pull myself out of this damaging depression and actually be able to accomplish something in my life aside from being starving artist living on handouts until the fucking economy improves.
Nothing sucks more than having a Master's degree and everyone saying you're not good enough or you're too good.
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To Do List: (which I probably won't be getting around to doing for a long long long long time.)
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
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Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No brain cells were harmed... I think. I can't be sure anymore. Wait... what?
~My clubs~
I do not believe I've ever been depressed before. I was okayish through February--but since then I've been spiraling downward. Not even RP seems to bring me out of it. I made a lot of promises to myself and haven't kept one. I just want to get lost in doing something else, but can't. I've barely written a word.
All in all, I believe I'm officially in the middle of my first real depression and I'm not sure how to handle it.
That said, I will still not be on dA very often. I have YET to find a job, and it's becoming more and more frustrating. I have now expanded my search and I will continue to keep trying to move forwards and upwards. I have been doodling some, so I will be posting the handful of things I've managed to doodle in the last ten months. Not a whole lot so don't worry about a dump into your inboxes.
Not like any of you will notice much.
In any case, ultimately I'm doing this because a) I need something to keep me somewhat sane during those days when there's no video game, no tv, and no friends to break the brain damaging monotony of applying to jobs and b) I'm proud of a few doodles and want to share them. Even if no one really cares or notices much. If you do, awesome. If you don't, oh well.
With any luck, I can pull myself out of this damaging depression and actually be able to accomplish something in my life aside from being starving artist living on handouts until the fucking economy improves.
Nothing sucks more than having a Master's degree and everyone saying you're not good enough or you're too good.
***
To Do List: (which I probably won't be getting around to doing for a long long long long time.)
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
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Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No brain cells were harmed... I think. I can't be sure anymore. Wait... what?
~My clubs~
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In Transit
3 min read
At Boise Airport waiting for a flight to Reno, then a shuttle to Squaw Valley in Lake Tahoe, for a very intensive week of writing and learning and craziness.
I know I haven't posted anything or said anything in forever.
But first I had family over, then I had a computer virus given to me by dA, then I had a packing frenzy, selling items, and preparing for this trip.
Probably won't be more active here until:
1) I move and am settled.
2) I have a job.
3) I can buy a sketchbook.
4) I can buy ANOTHER print cartridge.
Till then, stay frosty. Much loves for you all!
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To Do List:
-TurkHun piccie for piku-chan *crappy doodle sketched and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
-Series 2 Slayers-goyle Filia and Xellos *drawn and inked
-Series 2 Slayers-goyle Gourry and Lina *drawn and inked
-Series 2 Slayers-goyle Zelgadiss and Amelia *drawn and inked
-Series 3 LoZ:TP story images *one incomplete sketch
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Mad Hatter *inked
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Cheshire Cat *inked
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Alice
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland White Knight
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland March Hare
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
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Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No brain cells were harmed in the chaos ensuing, though it sure feels like they were. O_o
~My clubs~
I know I haven't posted anything or said anything in forever.
But first I had family over, then I had a computer virus given to me by dA, then I had a packing frenzy, selling items, and preparing for this trip.
Probably won't be more active here until:
1) I move and am settled.
2) I have a job.
3) I can buy a sketchbook.
4) I can buy ANOTHER print cartridge.
Till then, stay frosty. Much loves for you all!
***
To Do List:
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
-Series 3 LoZ:TP story images *one incomplete sketch
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Alice
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland White Knight
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland March Hare
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
***
Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No brain cells were harmed in the chaos ensuing, though it sure feels like they were. O_o
~My clubs~
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Life Update
5 min read
IRL stuff: Still having no luck on the job front. I need one, posthaste. Got really pissed at missing AWP. My mentor from FIU was there and I could've really used the boost to my writing moral. Thesis is mostly complete. Finished a "rough draft" of all five stories. Had a meeting with my professor today. Sam said in Story I the end needs to be expanded more. He offered suggestions I like. Story II, the end probably needs to a projection rather than a sum up. I can do that. Story III, the last scene needs a bit more grounding in the present and a smidge more juxtaposition to complete it. All good. Story IV, needs another overhaul. Damn story plagues my existence. Story V only needs some clever spinning of interior. All things considered, that pretty good. He said I could make it a book by adding three more stories (max) and then try to submit it to big name publishers. He thinks its that good. Which is AWESOME. I was just going to try contests. The thing needs to be fixed and formatted and three copies turned in by the 25th of May. My defense date is a tentative 8th of June (which is also my last day of class). I still have a few thesis books to finish. Coincidentally, my grandmother and brother are coming in on the 25th as well. My mom and cousin are coming the 10th of June. Graduation is June 11th. The book our newly formed mini-press published No Time for Dancing (a chapbook of poetry of mostly unpublished work from the surrealist comic poet Adam Hammer) is going to have its release on the 7th or 9th. We're still working on venues to book. Spokane Prize reading is kind of slow, so we're having a reading party on the 26th. Submitted for the Squaw Valley Workshop in August. Praying I get in. Lydia Millet is reading Friday and I'm throwing the after party. One last hurrah before the final stretch. Gotta clean tomorrow. It's getting warmer.
Online stuff: Still behind on doodle projects. Also behind on submissions and on job applications. Will be working on doodles and fan fictions (ideally) after the thesis gets turned in as long as family lets me. Still have to scan Slayers mangas for fellow participants in Slayers contests. I promise I will do it soon. Behind on most of my RPs save one (and a half). Putting the following here for reference so I can use them later. I have a sucky memory. Want to do the Slayers Creative contest, but I'm having issues coming up with an original character that isn't a reinvention of a family member we haven't seen.
All in all... I'm swamped.
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To Do List:
-TurkHun piccie for piku-chan *crappy doodle sketched and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
-Series 2 Slayers-goyle Filia and Xellos *drawn and inked
-Series 2 Slayers-goyle Gourry and Lina *drawn and inked
-Series 2 Slayers-goyle Zelgadiss and Amelia *drawn and inked
-Series 3 LoZ:TP story images *one incomplete sketch
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Mad Hatter *inked
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Cheshire Cat *inked
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Alice
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland White Knight
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland March Hare
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
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Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No brain cells were harmed in the chaos ensuing, though it sure feels like they were. O_o
~My clubs~
Online stuff: Still behind on doodle projects. Also behind on submissions and on job applications. Will be working on doodles and fan fictions (ideally) after the thesis gets turned in as long as family lets me. Still have to scan Slayers mangas for fellow participants in Slayers contests. I promise I will do it soon. Behind on most of my RPs save one (and a half). Putting the following here for reference so I can use them later. I have a sucky memory. Want to do the Slayers Creative contest, but I'm having issues coming up with an original character that isn't a reinvention of a family member we haven't seen.
All in all... I'm swamped.
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To Do List:
-Series 1 A:tLA Katara Goddess *drawn and inked
-Series 1 A:tLA Suki Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Toph Goddess
-Series 1 A:tLA Aang God
-Series 1 A:tLA Sokka God
-Series 1 A:tLA Zuko God
-Series 3 LoZ:TP story images *one incomplete sketch
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland Alice
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland White Knight
-Series 4 D&D Wonderland March Hare
On Hold:
...buying a new sketchbook in order to do ANY of these drawings... *head desk*
***
Disclaimer: Please do not get up on "your" (as in general, not at any one specific person) soapbox and tell me I'm wrong for stating my thoughts, opinions and feelings. It's just a journal.**
**No brain cells were harmed in the chaos ensuing, though it sure feels like they were. O_o
~My clubs~
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